4 Powerful Reasons Why Anxiety Is Your Friend (With Tips!)

We can choose to look at our anxiety as the enemy, something that wants to harm us, something that wants to destroy us, or even eliminate us from this earth, but with a little imagination we can look at it from a completely different perspective... it's really up to you. Which perspective are you choosing?

1. Become Friends With It, Since It's Asking For Your Approval Anyway

As we know, the first step towards allowing self-healing is acceptance, though it may be easier said than done, it is very much necessary. Why? Because ignoring the problem will only temporally "store it" until it ceases the opportunity to rise back up to the surface and say Hey you! Did you forget about me? With that exact tone... let's be precises here.

We are conscious that by pushing against the unwanted we're actually not pushing it away, but really what we're doing it pretending like it's not there, but where does it go? In our subconscious, yep.

Our fears have only two places to go, in or out. The places, people, events or memories we fear most, at any level of intensity, along with what causes us the most pleasure, are all engraved in our subconscious mind. They serve us all day long, every day, with no exceptions, just like constant feedback mechanism, and it does so to in order to protect us against harm! Yes...

Our subconscious knows precisely what to look for in every situation; it finds the core emotion behind the lived experience (in this case negative memory), which is most appropriate to our current environment, and then converts in a way that we can understand it, to a thought. Next, this thought generates the utmost appropriate feeling or emotion attached to it so that we're well aware of "how we feel" about it this particular experience, since we're unable to read our mind at a subconscious level. Hence the unpleasant or unwanted feeling coming from nowhere. Here's an abstract example:

If you quit on doing your dishes for a week, bacteria will wondrously start forming. By ignoring it, not only it won't go away my itself, but the unpleasant smell that lingers in your home will keep on reminding you to "do your dishes".

It's no wonder, it's a support system -- to support a healthy mind-body-and-soul.

We must be brutally honest with ourselves and see it as what is, and not for what "it seems". In other words our bodies tell us that there's something honestly wrong, and if left unattended it will begin to show physically (physical illness), mentally (mental illness) and spiritually (disconnection). There are no such thing as a false alarm when it comes to our human nature. 10 years later, we begin to feel pain, we get physically ill, mentally ill, or in conjunction with one another.

So, what does it mean to accept our anxiety? In essence it is you accepting it for letting you see what you are truly afraid of, thus something that was long forgotten is now found, and now today you can free yourself from it. A fear is usually attached to a childhood memory. The reason why they are fears today is simply that they were never properly addressed, then other circumstances resulted to confirm that very fear, but only today, it feels much heavier. It may be far, but today it's asking for your full attention, forgiveness, as well and self-forgiveness.

Our subconscious holds many secrets, but sooner or later they will be revealed, in fact they are revealed to us every day, we just don't see it as is. Accepting our anxiety is really about agreeing with the idea that our symptoms are actually triggered by negative aspects of our lives, even though we may did not consciously choose upon them before the symptoms or panic occurred. So, it's time to face our dishes and just do them already!

2. Your fears Are Here To Guide You

I fear me, I fear you, I fear my anxiety, I fear everything! I may just be going in fear!

Anxiety is manifested out of fears, and the last thing we want to do is to stay stuck in a fear cycle, which sort of looks like this diagram:

Once the core fear alarmed more fears as secondary you could possibly find yourself panicking and feeling stuck in this overwhelming dance of fears, which logically will feel quite confusing. But let's not fear! Because we also know that what we persist resist, so there is no difference when it comes down to our own fear of anxiety! Meaning, since fear needs fear to persist, there is really no common sense in feeding it more fear, right? To add, fear is really only in our heads...

Remember that our feelings are really just a mirror of our thoughts, so by reminding ourselves that we have control over our thoughts, we then gain an immense sense of relief, and our feelings and emotions are no longer out of whack. Our thoughts are nothing more than a "product" of oneself, however if they no longer serve us any good, we can reduce emotional negative behavior simply by being aware of what we're thinking, and deliberately choose to either stick with it (causes us to feel good), or get rid of it (causes us to feel bad). It's like mastering a new game, the self-awareness game, perhaps?

For instance, in that moment when you feel that tightness in your chest, or that head-rush, or your heart is beating faster, keep calm, remain focused, take control over your breathing and bring each breath to a slower pace, then take a deeper breath and visualize exhaling the fear out of your system from your mouth. Repeat as necessary, until the fear is no longer dominant.

If you're ready to take it to the next level and begin an emotional healing process. Ask yourself these questions: Why you think you fear this particular thought (aka memory). When was the first time it took place? Was it recent? Can you stop fearing today it or will it require diligent effort? Perhaps try these 5 simple steps:

1. Think about what causes you to feel this emotion
2. Find that core memory and feel the emotion
3. Understand why it happened the way that it did
4. Give your forgiveness to everyone involved, including to yourself
5. Find peace within yourself while holding that image in your head

Here is a great video supporting the idea of healing our emotional body: How To Heal The Emotional Body - Teal Swan.

Remind yourself that you are your thoughts, thus you are in control, and not your fears -- they are only your messengers ;)

3. Your Triggers Are Only Insisting Reminders

Our triggers were unfortunately not taught to "knock before you enter", nor do they call ahead of time as a friendly "head-up". It's kind of like an unexpected friend surprising us with a box full of jumping spiders... go figure. The question is, why?

When we think of something that surprisingly makes us anxious, or afraid, or insecure, that's when we know we're dealing with one of our triggers. They come from all directions; circumstances, past events, places, people, and although we may not be at that very moment thinking about them, unconsciously we are. Let's just call them engraved triggers.

We usually associate our triggers based on how we feel or our emotions, but really they come from beyond that; our thoughts. Are thoughts are what ultimately cause us to feel those painful feelings and emotions. Yet, some people may say that they did absolutely nothing to invite that thought, or others may say that they were occupied with laundry and obviously not in a negative state of mind, however, that simply cannot be,

nothing exists without first being in a form of a thought, in other words what causes us to feel anxious is nothing less than us resisting a thought.

Please let us explain further with an example:

You're talking to a friend about a show you're thinking to attend, while your subconscious is looking for evidence (positive or negative) to support you in this moment, then surprisingly enough it finds a negative memory attached to a similar scenario, consequently when all seemed fine you suddenly start to feel your throat tighten up and you begin to choke on your words.

Everything we do is ultimately attached to a memory.

We may have multiple triggers or it may only be one that shows up again and again, but the importance is that we recognize them; what they are, how we feel about them and where they originate from. Or we can also ask ourselves these specific questions: What makes me want to crumble in to a ball or run away? What makes me feel uncomfortable? What do I dislike the most?

Asking yourself any questions really can help guide you in the direction of clarity. Once you've narrowed them to a few, ask yourself these follow-up questions: What are these feelings or emotions linked to? And what are they trying to tell me?

Below are some suggestions of other common triggers:

• public speaking (e.g., social anxiety, low self-esteem or low confidence)
• specific phobia (e.g., physical illness, anxiety symptoms, car crash, heights, etc.)
• social interaction (e.g., social anxiety or low self-worth or self-esteem)
• a particulate person (attached to a negative event or memory)
• a specific location (linked to a traumatic memory, person or event)
• anxiety (fear of symptom or panic attacks)
• death (continuously fearing your death)
• memories (linked to a traumatic memory, person or event)
• your destiny (not achieving your goals, not finding that soul-mate, etc.)
• money (not getting enough money or not making as much as you wished for)
• illness (fear of getting ill, aka Hypochondriasis or Nosophobia)
• the list is really endless...

A memory is a thought at the subconscious level. These triggers can reveal themselves in the form of a thought or an image, and each is linked to its own unique engraved dominant feeling. Hence the way you feel is appropriate based on your personal experience. Your triggers may be obvious to you, or they may not be, but it is your duty to find out what they are.

Understand what are your insecurities or fears, or better, by knowing where they come from this will give you the key to the door of your anxiety mystery. Learning to face our fears is exceptionally healing. Reassuring ourselves by introducing the theory that there are no good reasons to fear our anxiety or our symptoms can be extremely reassuring, yet it is only temporary. What you want to do is catch it at the subconscious level, and handle it from the root, where it was undoubtedly initially born.

4. Anxiety is Not Reassuring, but You Can Be

These 7 uplifting reminders are simply to come in handy during those hard times:

1. Everything happens for a reason, so there is no reason to be afraid. Ask yourself questions.
2. Nothing lasts forever, but it will if we choose to ignore it.
3. With knowledge, the right tools, our will, dedication, and with greater self-awareness, we can learn to move through life's challenges by recognizing that they are here to teach us, not to harm us.
4. We must listen very closely to what our body is saying, we must take action, and learn.
5. Life is our greatest teacher, and the only way to speak to us is through experiences.
6. You have chosen to be here, find what is your black so that your white becomes evident.
7. Self interrogation gives you mind clarity.

We must be brutally honest with ourselves, while also remaining true to ourselves. Discover who you really are by the contrast of your experiences, and love the life you indented to live. No doctor can see through you, at least not the way that you can ;)

Namaste

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Fear Diagram image credit: mindoveranxietyissexy.blogspot.com

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Tomato Vs. Avocado - The Undefined

I am a woman, daughter, and mother with day-to-day challenges and lived experience with mental illness and disorders. I'd like to stress I am not a healthcare professional. Presently I struggle to keep my anxiety in-check and I can occasionally "feel depressed" but I will stress it is nothing compared to feeling like you are being swallowed whole by the world and it's only a "matter of time" before someone or something destroys you (or you destroy yourself!).

I tell myself daily:

Know your truth and don't back down! I no longer have room for historical demons and doubts. I will not entertain their foolishness. I do not deserve to suffer and I forgive myself and others for any wrong doing or hurt in the past. I am a product of my experiences and because of that I AM IN CHARGE. My experiences DO NOT define me. What I do now and the lessons I've learned dictates their meaning.

I've always being very emotional and sensitive. I was never very good at sports, mainly because I was not competitive, I liked to be by myself and work on things independently. I took to the arts, painting, pottery, music, dance, and even figure skating - although that proved to be too competitive near the end as well. I was fortunate enough to come from a loving family and had a beautiful childhood. I am grateful for this, especially now that I am a mother, and I see and hear so many heartaches involving families and children suffering in our own backyard and around the world.

When I hit about 12 years of age things changed very fast for me. I didn't have the confidence I saw in others around me. I didn't "bounce back" when someone put me down. I started looking around me and felt different from everyone. Like a freak of nature. I felt so intensely about everything around me. Every person and situation was so meaningful and I didn't understand why this was not the same for everyone else. It was very difficult to navigate through junior high, high school, and even my early 20's feeling this way. And others constantly took advantage of my naiveté.

Without going into details, I have been a victim both crimes of the heart and the law. I further crumbled and these experiences ripped through me and broke me down. I took refuge in hurting myself physically, using drugs and alcohol to escape from how disappointed I was in the world and how I hated myself for not being strong like everyone else. As a result I tortured myself with the guilt and shame I brought to the family dinner table for years.

In my 20's everything changed with the birth of my son. I was not "cured". I still had my struggles but I knew I had to be stronger and I knew he needed me. Over the years I screwed up a few times, I will not lie! By the time I was 25 I think I had seen three or four dedicated mental health practitioners. Number four changed me forever. She told me given my "make up" she probably would have turned out the same way and done the same things. She told me I wasn't inferior to her or anybody. She did not pity me. She had EMPATHY.

Her and I came to the conclusion being told I am "too sensitive", that I need to 'build a thicker skin', and 'not to take things so personally' closely resembled staring at a tomato and telling it to 'become an avocado.' I am a tomato and I own it.

So with the baggage of a divorce, a child, debt, and being a university drop-out to boot I started over. It was a series of one step forward and two (sometimes 3 or 4) steps back. The greatest gift I have given myself over the years though is FORGIVENESS. Being armed with forgiveness allowed me to accept things that had transpired in my life. It allowed me to take responsibility and become accountable with love and acceptance instead of with guilt and shame. Letting go for me was not about giving in, it was (for lack of a better word) transformational and a necessity if I ever wanted to excel in life and not live in a place of hurt and pain.

I started looking at myself (both my body and my mind) and the world around me differently. I looked at food as medicine and exercise as a way to keep the motor running. I became more interested in studying different spiritual practices, homeopathy, naturopathy, and learned to slow down in the midst of chaos. This was instrumental where I lived in the middle of the hustling city of Montreal, Quebec at the time. With the help of others' guidance and literature I learned that the anxiety I feel can be countered with peace.

I recognized for my own healing process (this is different for everyone) it was important for me to do more of what made me feel most connected to people and the earth. This was the opposite of what I was doing before and I learned I could safely express my sensitivity more and more. Today I write, paint, practice yoga, and go for long walks on the beach and in the snow, depending on the season around here. I know that if I am feeling anxious about something that it is important for me personally to quickly assess the situation I'm in and act swiftly because something is likely "off".

I have been focusing on listening more to my intuition and learning about what brings me pleasure in life despite what others believe or think. A hot cup of tea, meditation, and curling up to read a book or a movie sounds like a great Friday night to me! Again, I am not "cured" and life's changes - they are unpredictable, but for the first time in a very long time (likely since childhood) I feel at peace and I am truly happy. I have a long road ahead of me, even this next year is going to be pretty intense, but I am committed to myself and my family my friends and this life.

In the last year I managed to crush my last vice, my evil friend smoking. I have enrolled in school once again, and got back to my yoga practice. I am still just as sensitive (if not more than ever) but I feel stronger than ever. The difference is I've used my experiences and truly listened to what they taught me. I navigated myself away from the negative, into a positive headspace, and now some really big things are happening!

So 2015... I do not believe in New Year's resolutions but I believe in positive daily affirmations. I believe in sharing the good, bad, and even ugly. I believe there is strength in numbers. I believe in myself and I believe in you. I think we need to take the pressure off the New Year, take a deep breath, forgive, accept, and reach out to inspire one another.

Kindest Regards,
MTP

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How I Am Managing My Chronic Anxiety

I come from a fairly large family composed of five girls, and let me tell you things would go "missing" quite often in the household! Though, this doesn't speak for the financial struggles associated with a single mother trying her best to raise a family on a low income. The fact that we were girls certainly didn't stop us from eating like growing teenage boys, which financially speaking obviously didn't help. We learned to live with the bare minimum and everything else was considered a luxury, thus we all had to get a job and work for it. Today I wonder if these absences and experiences have anything to do with mt stress level, depression and anxiety. Despite of it all, I was a very happy child and left lucky to have such a wonderful family and a roof over our heads. I was filled with hopes and dreams, hope that one day things would all make sense and fall into place, or in other words. I'd finally wake up from this dream.

I never really stressed over much. and always looked on the bright side on things. Not that I understood what those dark roads meant, but I knew very well that worrying wouldn't help anything, and I made sure to express that to everyone around me. I was that middle child who never sweated the small things, and was soon named the "Zen" one of the five.

Personally, I've always been a master at day-dreaming; my mother would constantly remind me to get out of the clouds, however I'd prefer playing other scenarios in my head over my reality. That was me at home. Though, school was different. For popularity reasons I didn't fit in very well so I soon saw myself as different, weird, or plain "not normal", when comparing myself to others. However I didn't feel the need to be accepted or understood by schoolmates or kids from my neighborhood, and in fact I truly enjoyed being on my own, because this way I would avoid dealing with other's expectations of me. I was able to just "be me" and not really care about my reputation. But there was one major problem, which was that I would keep to myself and forget to associate with others, thus, I would keep everything inside. As a child, I couldn't understand the consequences from not expressing myself; my worries, your troubles, my opinions and emotions, brief, what I expected from others and what I wanted in life. It was only in my early twenties when "things got a bit sour", I think I was beginning a depression.

What is depression? Please allow me to go back and explain in my own words:

First, nothing mattered, nothing to look forward to and nothing would excite me anymore. Everyone around me would seem happy but me, and I couldn't understand how they could possibly be happy, walk with confidence and even smile. There seemed to be a huge gap between my world and their worlds. My world was dark and theirs didn't seem right either, because nothing felt right... nothing.

Of course, getting up in the morning was very uncomfortable and obviously had no point to it. The minute I'd wake up my entire body would hurt and I couldn't stop or prevent it even if I wanted to. I'd stay up until sunrise and yet I would accomplish absolutely nothing. I was completely lost, with no drive whatsoever, no ambition, no idea how to get myself out of it; if I would requite external help or I carry the weight on my own. It was nothing compared to what I had ever experienced, much darker and scarier, more life death, like a walking zombie lost in an unknown world. My dreams which once felt doable now left unrealistic, and even my life was uncertain.

I felt the need to distance myself from my friends and family so that they wouldn't feel the mental and physical pain I was in. I isolate and question everything; my existence, anyone's existence for that matter, and the meaning of life. My self-confidence and self-esteem were non-existent. I would even ask myself why would anyone want to be confident? That's just egotistic... and what's the point of living?

Seeing people happy would irritate me and only get on my nerves. I simply could not relay with no one. I would lose patience over meaningless things. My mind would constantly wonder from left and right, and mostly scary thoughts, which had taken total control over my life. All I only wanted was to find a reason to be and some peace of mind, just for a short moment. My feelings were all over the place with no understanding as to why they were. It was like a roller-coaster, going from one thought to the next, from one emotion to another, and being the rational type only made it worse, since I'd try to process my own thought process, so you can only imagine how crazy I felt at times. From not caring when someone was getting engaged or had a new job, to having no empathy for nothing and nobody. I felt guilt, pain, danger, afraid and lonely. Life had completely changed its course, painful and just pointless. I didn't know what was happening to me nor did I have a clue how I would get out of this, if someone would come and save me, or if I would have to carry the weight on my own, once again...

I started to fear everything, including my own self and refection. I had no self-defense, no self-control or desire to care for myself. It felt like I was going through some type of mental illness, self-disconnection, lack of self-confidence or self-esteem, or perhaps a combination of all. Completing the puzzle felt impossible, and even peaking through just to get an insight on how it looked on the other side wasn't working for me. The physical pain became unbearable and my ability to process thoughts became even more difficult. I'd get a headache just by thinking which was certainly not normal or healthy. The accumulation and combination of the physical, mental and emotional symptoms took a hold on me, and finally, my dear friend Anxiety came knocking. At that point, depression wasn't so bad after all.

One of the worse experience I ever had to go through was getting myself to work and back. Here's a bit of a scenario on how it took place:

Every morning I'd get on the public transit for a forty-five minute commute to work. I had to mentally prepare myself for this in order to keep myself straight and focused, however it worked only maybe 50% of the time. Every stop, person talking, bell ringing, door opening and closing and even the noise of the bus running would trigger my symptoms of anxiety and would turn into mini panic attacks. I felt completely stupid for it and so I had to step out and attempt at the next one so that I would make it to my destination safe and sound. Sometimes it would take four buses to make it there. I'm not sure how I repeated that for years. I guess I just had to be places.

Some other symptoms I'd experience at home (or anywhere) were: afraid of falling asleep, sudden waking during sleep, trembling, sweaty palms, cold sweats, difficulty speaking or expressing myself, irritability, easily provoked, sensitivity to loud noises and light, shorten of breath and trouble catching my breath, bad posture, back, neck, shoulder, leg and arm pain, numbness in my extremities, foggy mind and blurry vision, skin rash and oily skin, hair loss (I now keep it short and like it that way), fear of dying and passing out, fear of loosing it, public phobia, monophobia, autophobia, claustrophobia, complete self-disconnection and difficulty looking at my own reflection.

I actually had to take myself to the hospital on a few occasions, but only to be sent back home and told that there was nothing wrong with me, and that it was all a playback in my head. Stubborn as I was I refused to accept the medication doctors prescribed me because I wanted to fix the problem from the root, instead of covering the symptoms. I knew that if I would go on medication I would only distant further from myself, my dignity and the little bit of self-awareness I had left. Now back at step one. Deep down I truly felt like a complete idiot for going through this, and I was afraid that maybe I had developed a mental illness, since it was confirmed by physicians... that it was all in my head.

Surprisingly enough I did notice that I was capable of controlling most of my symptoms, and also even prevent those mini attacks from actualizing. Well then since it's either all in my head or not at all, I then began exploring other methods, techniques and avenues. which today serve me greatly and will always remain in my self-help tool box. The followings seemed to have helped me the most: mediation, yoga, music (natural sounds, vibrations, mantras) and self-talk. Another tip which I found very helpful was imagine myself in a moment when I felt Ok, before all of this started which would temporally bring me back to that "good place", so that I could touch it again. Slowly it all started to come back to me... piece by piece... moment by moment, and years later.

As far as self-talk goes, the main purpose was not only to and convince myself that I was going to be Ok, and better, but most importantly it helped me figure out who I really was. Going "back in time" helped me to a point, but even this method was not enough in my journey of finding my self. Since I had lost myself, I now had to re-learn who I was, and mainly who I wanted to become. I'd spent the majority of my time self-talking (in my head of course) soul searching, in a way I had no idea was possible. I was becoming aware of my inner-peace, my inner-connection, my inner joy, which surprisingly left more comforting than anything else I ever had or had always wanted.

Although my days weren't always pink, at times I felt lost, unsure, and afraid, but a voice inside of me insisted that I don't give up, no matter how long it was going to take me or how difficult it was. The next day I would look inside and find that strength again, and continue on. Letting go was simply not an option, but instead it became a motivation to reach a higher self, and of course to get through this. I thought to myself "oh boy this is going to be a long road, but if I ever make it I will be stronger than ever". I knew this was a part of my life's mission, I knew I had to go through this for a reason...

Consequently I came up with a fun game called, I'm sure you all guessed it, "Finding the missing pieces of the puzzle", where I had an imaginary puzzle in progress on my bedroom wall. Of course not literally, but I would add to it every aha moment I could get my hands on. This additional technique not only gave me strength, but it also made me realize that I was heading towards recovery, piece by piece. Doing this mental exercise also provided me with a great sense of awareness, and that I was in control over my mind, body and soul, thus life, although a work in progress, I knew it was only a matter of time before I could "breathe" normally again. I used to have many dreams, but now I have only one, achieving total peace of mind.

I made the choice of going natural vs. taking medication because it felt right for me. Being the sensitive person that I am, just thinking about being controlled under the influence of a medication scared the crap of out of me, so that was certainly not a good choice for me. Au contraire, I wanted to feel every pain, discomfort and symptoms, so that I would evaluate each moment and get linked back to the root, and possibly try and fix it, instead of being completely numbed. I did many researches on the subject and came up with my own techniques that seemed to have worked well for me, though I am well aware that they may not work for everyone, since we all have different perspectives, beliefs and mentality. As far as nutrition goes, eating clean has always been important to me, and although this wasn't a contributing factor in my case, I believe that it can be a strong indicator in other cases.

From my experience, the key element that helped me cope and still today defeating my anxiety and depression was to reconnect with myself, my identity, my soul. I was doing what I though was right for me but I was obviously doing it all wrong. I was so not aligned with my my highest good thus lost myself completely to the point where I "felt" disconnected, because I was. I felt "crazy" because my mind was also "going crazy". I felt stupid and worthless because I was doing worthless and stupid things. Here's a simple equation I like to refer to in harder times: "Soul Connects the Mind -> Mind Connects the Head -> Head Connects the Body = Soul". It's simple and effective when I feel not quite connected. A self-disconnection can lead to total catastrophe. Some people may not have had this experienced, but to those who have, I feel you.

Just like dealing with any addictions, it takes time, effort, understanding, dedication and discipline before we can see profound results. In my opinion, anxiety and depression are only a "state of mind", which we all know can be controlled with the power of our own will. Our minds just like our muscles can become damaged over time if not properly cared for, but with a bit of TLC and regular "training" we can see remarkable results.

Who would of thought I would experience something this frightening, something that felt so dark, lonely, devastating and so close to death, but let's not get ahead of ourselves, even the most Zen person who seems totally aligned, can be completely disconnected.

Today the sun is shining and that's really all that matters. I truly believe in miracles, let me tell you! I could be talking about my life struggles and whatnot for days, but for now I only wish to give you an insight on my struggles, my findings, key lessons and what I am doing today to keep sane, in hopes that one person can benefit from it. It's definitely not easy to put myself out there, but I know I'm not the only one, and I also know that everyone has a different story to tell.

The key lesson I took from this experience is that internal happiness is the most precious gift life has to offer, and that internal happiness is in fact a choice. Today I accept my suffering and am extremely grateful for it, because today I see it as a life changing experience to help me flourish and live a happier life. As hard as it may seem anxiety and depression are definitely curable, and although medication may help some, there are many other avenues to look into, which can also work beautifully. The question is, what are you looking to get out of it?

The most important thing you can do for yourself is to take any steps towards healing, because one step will lead you to the next, and sooner or later you will reach a happier place, but only if you choose not to give up.

The way you see my story is most likely different to how I am interpreting it. We all lived different paths, have received differently, wish for different things and see life differently, therefore there is no need to judge one's story or goal. instead we can listen and try to understand, because that may be all we can do.

Wishing you a full and long lasting recovery.

Méliane

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